Looking and Thought should never mix. If you are looking you should see the blue sky all the way through every time. If you are thinking you get a fully clouded white sky. It's no way to live your life in "white".
Obviously you're just jerking yourself around. It's not even my intention to help you out, te. But you seem to be here (mostly talking to yourself), probably confused about something. Just use your own eyes to figure your sh!t out. That's the sane way to go.