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→→→→ vertical line TOPIC: WHY DO I STILL FEEL SEPARATE DURING WHAT I THINK IS PURE CONSCIOUSNESS
vertical line Posted on Feb.23.2017 @ 10:01AM EDT by bosweljj
Ok, I’ve been meditating for a while now and I’ve always been able to quickly achieve a state of good awareness and sometimes I think I’ve actually had glimpses of enlightenment or pure consciousness but I’ve never got anything out of it other than feeling one with the moment at that time and then when meditation is over, thoughts rush in along with life stresses etc.. I try to continue the practice into everyday life activities. I listen A LOT to Alan Watts audio archives and audiobooks and I actually understand that we (cosmos) are all 1, all connected and interdependent on each other, a harmony of complex patterns and events etc. but last night I believe that I actually achieved proper pure consciousness, I had no concept of time, I was just doing and witnessing, completely separate from my thoughts, I could of been anywhere doing anything and I would of felt the same, just a watcher experiencing with no judgement, it felt amazing. HOWEVER, I still felt separate, like a watcher separate from the universe seeing it unfold before me, but still separate. I don’t feel connected. I think that when I die my watcher will die, I don’t feel like my watcher is the energy of universe and it will go on when my body dies. I’m struggling to explain it in words. I feel my thoughts as separate from me, I can see them come and go but I still don’t feel one with the universe. I do as a mutual happening both happening at the same time, me and it but not as the same thing! Can someone guide me!
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Reply from so_teh
Feb.26.2017
09:31PM EDT 
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vertical line I know what it is like being caught in the IDEA of all this. And that's what alan watts and others don't want to happen. They are just one individual with a perception. When you combine many individuals with many of the same similar perceptions before you know it you are caught in this IDEA.

My suggestion from what you wrote is take a break from the subject. Learn something new! Out of the realm of the subject of consciousness. This can be difficult. But when you break away from it for awhile you will find some real clarity. Then you can return with a fresh mind.

Do something different.
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Reply from bosweljj
Feb.28.2017
09:11AM EDT 
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vertical line Thank you for the reply. I will. It can get frustrating sometimes as I feel like I'm on the verge of understanding it all, like it's all about to 'click' in my mind and then no, something's missing or something doesn't make sense.
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Reply from so_teh
Mar.12.2017
01:27PM EDT 
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vertical line Silent Knowing
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